Every once in a while I get pensive and think about things that inspire me to want to write.  This is one of those times.  I normally write in my journal, for my eyes only, but, I figured I’d try it out this way.  One thing I do know and that is these spells always precede a down-time for me.  You know?  Depression.  I’ve had depression for over 20 years.  I know where it comes from most of the time.  Depression, I feel, is normal.  A lot of people go through spells of depression.  There’s a good many situations that are automatic depression-causers.  Life can sure throw some crap at ya that can send ya spiraling down into a funk that seems impossible to get out of, eh?

As bad as this kind of depression is, that is not the same thing as ‘clinical depression’.  Clinical depression has wreaked havoc on my life!  I’ve lost weight from it, but, other than that, it sucks.  I’m not going to bore you with how it has been for me.  I’ve done all the medical stuff and taken most every brand of pills known to the medical field, and, I’ve tried a good many ‘natural’ ways to alleviate it.  The latter, natural remedies, includes such things as meditation, yoga, even melatonin.  And, I’ve been in therapy.  Good gracious have I been in therapy!  But, now, through a combination of the above, I can be pretty much okay.  Still, about once every couple of months, I sink down and it takes more and more to get back up again.